I come here quite often in the mornings to climb the small cluster of boulders in the middle of the park. And as always, the first sight of the dull orange rock brings a smile to my face and my eyes instinctively turn upwards to the top of Rock Face #11 as it greets me like a good friend. I connect, I really do connect with this place..the moment I see it, I feel it.
I pass under Rock Face #2, which has been giving me sleepless days (I usually doze off in office!!) for the past couple of weeks. It is the most beautiful piece of rock in the area. It starts off slightly overhung for the first 5 metres, which is the tough part, and then slips back to vertical and is very smooth for the rest of its 12 m height. The rock face has precious few indentations to provide leverage for desperate fingers. The place where the overhung part merges into vertical rock is where the climber has to pull up his whole bodyweight on a fingernail-deep knob while his feet kick thin air. Its 5M off the ground with a not-too-scary landing on grass. That is the crux move. That is 'The Move'.
Getting to the Move itself is a bit tricky but I had mastered it after a couple of tries. 'The Move' itself is a different matter. I have made 5 attempts, including once with a rope, which I thought would give me greater confidence, but it had always eluded me. I even fell off a couple of times and just could not pull myself up on the thin knob. I was starting to think that #2 was beyond me at the moment. I was just not good enough for it. I had lost the mental edge over the rock. I was resigned to stare at it longingly for some time.
This morning, I walked past #2 and started stretching on the crimpy holds of my favourite warm up boulder. There was something in the air today...what was the buzz, what was the rock saying to me? I felt good, the stretch of my hamstrings was perfect and my body flowed on the rock like the alien in Predator..!!
Suddenly I know it. I know this is my best chance to crack 'The Move'. I know I am ready for it.
I walk up to the grassy patch under #2 and look at it. I can see the small knob of orange rock protruding from the smooth quartzite cliff where the overhang turns vertical. I feel the confidence seeping out of me....its a centimetre deep..there is no way ANYONE can pull up on that peanut sized hold..!! I start losing the invincible feeling..the mind starts its tricks again..trying to convince me with logic. I quickly dip my hands into my chalkbag and rub my hands with the dry chalk, which absorbs moisture off the hands and helps to firm the grip on rock. I then touch the rock, fold my hands in prayer, close my eyes and connect with the God of Rock.
The horizontal crack is a few inches above my head. I wedge the fingers of both hands into it and place my left foot on smooth, vertical rock. I pull up with my arms and as soon as I am off the ground, I reach out with my left hand to shove two middle fingers into the neat horizontal pocket above the crack. I steady my left foot and grab the vertical edge with my right hand. I shift my bodyweight to the left so that my right hand sticks with the rock on pure friction. I am arched like a bow, sticking to the rock, following its overhung contours and my body feels like jelly. Its like a yogic aasana and my concentration is total.
My left arm goes up steadily like the seconds hand on the Big Ben, slowly feeling the rock. I cannot afford to make any sudden moves because the balance required is immense. My left hand feels the horizontal groove 2 ft above my head and I breathe a sigh of relief as I hold onto it. It's the best hold on the whole face, an inch deep and 6 inches wide horizontal groove. I slowly bring up my right hand as I stick to the rock with my left hand and the big toe of my left foot. I bring up my feet to the horizontal crack where my hands were a few seconds ago and am now stuck at an angle of 70 degrees with the horizontal facing upwards, 2 meters off the ground. Just staying in this gravity defying position is sapping my strength and I have to make 'The Move' now.
I reach out with my left hand and on full stretch, clasp the little curved knob. I take off my right hand from the good hold and grasp a little bit of rough rock next to my left hand. I am holding my breath to give the next move all my strength. I heave, my fingers stretch under the strain as rough rock bites into my fingertips, I can feel the tendons of my biceps tearing apart and my knees scratch the rough rock desperately looking for traction. Just then my struggling left toe finds a small groove in the rock at full stretch and I let some of my weight ease onto the toe hold. I let go of the hold with my left hand and carefully feel the rock to the left with it. I grasp a protruding hold and before I realize it, I have I have crossed the overhang.
I am not thinking, everything is happening automatically.
I dig my hands into my chalk bag and feel the buzz that's pounding my head like a hammer. I'm feeling it man..bigtime! I've still got to go 5M more on really smooth and polished rock but nothings going to stop me now. I take a few deep breaths and steady myself. Then I test my next hand hold, a sloping smooth dip in the rock. Right foot on a sloping dip, right hand pulls a sloping dip and I am near the top. The top is super smooth, like talc and turns grey in colour, unlike the orange and brown lower half but the gradient is only 60 - 70 degrees. Its all balance here. Take it easy and don't rush it I tell myself. I am 10M off the ground and a fall from here would be serious but I am not thinking of falls, I am not thinking at all. I am totally focussed on the job at hand and it is just one of those climbs where everything comes together perfectly, like meditation, nothing else matters.
I pull over the edge of the wide ledge. That is the reward for the climb and I let out a Tarzanesque scream of triumph. I don't know what that was for, but it just came from within me. I watch the fruits of 2 weeks of extreme mental and physical effort which now dances before me. It was triumph....not over the rock. I didn't conquer the rock, I didn't prove I am better than the rock. The rock taught me...it showed me something I could never have experienced if I had not climbed it, something real, something inexplicable to someone who has not climbed. Like intoxication...you cant really explain it to someone who has never felt the sway of inebriation. It allowed me to let go of my fears, squashed my negative thoughts. It was a triumph of the spirit.
The thorny kikkar jungle spreads out happily before me and even the towering, phallic Qutub Minar looks a little dwarfed to me today. I sit down on the ledge with my back against the rock and just stare at nothing. I can feel my blood whooping with joy as it rushes through my fatigued forearms. My hand locks in place when I clench my fist and refuses to open.
The perfect climb…